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saralauderyin
19th august 1989

lucy!
[supersara]
u.r.mysunshine*
girls just wanna have fun.
yeah. everybody's looking at you.
Jesus<3syou.

crawl with me every step of the way
when i have lost my will to run.
hold on to me Love,
and i will behold failures none.
draw close, oh Love, that i may never lose sight
draw close, oh Love, that i will decrease in might
lead me on, running after the inch of your robes
carry me, when i find myself in losing hope
bid my soul to soar, into the infinite skies above
and my broken wings will find healing to serve
and i will be whole when i see you in victory,
but till then Love, i pray that you be proud of me.

p/s: i'll tell you what sucks. it's the fact that change is always the constant; innocence is all just once upon a time; and we are never in control - even when we think we are.

and also, that we continuously just grow up.
yeah. it's quite baffling, hey?

smiling my standard smile. humour. flipflops. sneakers. sleeping. candy. laughing. colourful socks. ice cream. calvin and hobbes. romantic comedies. head ruffles. mint chocolate. writing. big tight hugs. earrings. overalls. good music. a good book. sunnies. playing the piano. self expression. walking when there's a breeze. cold nights. going out for dinners. flying. chocolate fondue. chips. tictac. drawing+painting murals. singing with an acoustic guitar. the art of speaking. new clothes. =) getting presents. craft. creativity. futsal. reminiscing. sitting on random pavements. babies. =) big beds. acoustics. drummers. basists. poetry. roddick. james lafferty.

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alicia.h
allie
becky
bryan.jl
careen
christine t.
clement
david.e
debbie w.
derlyn
fang
gracie
jay
jia le
jia-li
jian
jian wei
jie
joanna
joe hock
keshia
nadrah
pamela
preeta
samantha
sarah
sharon
sook yi
sophie
su-ann
suezen
su lynn
tabitha
xiao yu
xueli
xuemei
yi lynn

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and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming.
or the moment of truth in your eyes.
when everything feels like the movies,
yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

if i lay here.
if i just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

so you sail away, into a grey sky morning

i'm gonna love you like nobody loves you. i'll earn your trust making memories of us.

i need you more and more each day.

even if you cannot hear my voice, i'll be right beside you dear.

iheartsookamecassmeikitgracienadagnes <3

theclassicparanoid*

Sunday, June 21, 2009

hello.

i've come with an announcement that this blog with be forthwith closed. i've thought about it, and i've decided not to shut it down completely because it's been with me for a while and many of thoughts are still recorded here. however, this is probably the last entry you'll see here.

the reason why i've decided to close this blog is mainly because of too many people in the family entering into blogosphere. my mother and sisters will tell the same stories i tell, and there's no point of repetition. also, i'm increasingly growing uncomfortable with making private thoughts known - i think i want to lay low for a while. besides, it's mostly rants anyway.

however, supersara has not left the blogging world - just morphed into another emerging character. i am still blogging, but in a different genre. i have started a food blog. desserts in the kitchen occupy a lot of my time and effort nowadays, so i thought i should be recording all these somewhere, lest i forget what i have achieved. i should have started it a long time ago, but i've never thought about it.

i will be sharing my recipes, tweaked and tested - recipes that i have taken from books and blogs. it will be a portfolio of some sort. :) so it's a different thing altogether, but there will undeniably be some snippets of life here and there - inevitable, i say. so fret not; and i'll see you real soon at:

www.ubersuperbakes.blogspot.com

RELINK ME NOW!

supersara @ 7:25 PM

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

hello hello! i'm on break for 4 months, and i will NOT be working! i know lah, you probably think i'm crazy. but i would be studying for a moot competition coming up this august, against other universities in the country. it's a whole new chapter completely, but i'm sure it'll be fun!

okay so bad news is: i am closing down this blog. i've lost all inspiration to tell you tales of far far away. but the good news is, i'll be focusing on another blog that denotes much of my passion - plus a few updates of my life here and there. till then: i'll let you know. =)

supersara @ 7:11 PM

Saturday, May 23, 2009

my mother is adamant. she is way more adamant than me, if you think i'm adamant.

because of that,
i love to see her LOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahahh!

my mother is a huge fan of adam lambert. H-U-G-E. she always said adam would win. during the weekly performances prior to the finale, she was judgmental and constantly said that all the contestants, first anoop, then lil, then alison, then KRIS always chose wrong songs the moment they break into the first line.

aiyah. wrong song lah. bad. bad.
you heard the song before meh?
no, but you can hear what. wrong song lah.

she said that for alison's cry baby, kris' heartless, and countless others - sometimes was right, but mostly wrong because she doesn't know contemporary music at all. it never bothered her because adam was victorious every week, enough to prove that she is always right. but nevermind, i sucked it up. in fact, i even preferred kris to adam especially to spite her and pick a fight.

she fought back, BUT WHO HAS THE LAST LAUGH NOW HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(still haven't finish but you get the picture.)

but still she was adamant. she was soooo adamant.

you will listen to adam in the car meh?
(silence)
the truth is, his voice is disheartening and unpleasant to hear for long periods of time.
it's a one time thing, you can't listen to him forever. kris on the other hand...
ahhh shaddap la you, he is a better vocalist!
but they are both in the f-
hands down lah! adam better!
why would-
kris CAN'T EVEN SING!
hallo! then why -
enough! it's a singing competition and adam is the better singer!

see, she won't even argue right. now you know how adamant she is?

even after the defeat:
this is a joke lah!
american idol is an embarassment!

i said, well kris is the american IDOL lah! the americans wanted him!

NO! it's simon lah. whoever simon likes america doesn't.
so it's not real. it's BIASED~!

aiyah.. concede defeat lah....:)

during another time:
what you baking tonight for the meeting?
made adi. i made egg tarts.
why you make egg tarts for! i thought you were making a pie! don't try something so hard lah. can or not you? at least pie you got experience!
aiyah what's the difference?!
YOU ARE JUST BEING DEFIANT! I ASK YOU TO MAKE PIE YOU MAKE TART!

***

supersara @ 4:14 PM

Thursday, May 07, 2009

girl: i hate losing.
boy: i know. that's why you'll never lose me.

***

OPERASI TRAIN JANTAN NUMBER I DUNNO WHAT

there are many instances where i can express dissatisfaction with the way a guy should be treating his girlfriend. there are also many instances where i can offer a piece of advice; or tell the guy where he's gone wrong and how to fix that;

but there are also many undeniable instances where i am left speechless in admiration for the sacrifice, love, time, effort, money and determination a guy can sometimes have to keep her or have her.

let's be honest - it's never one-sided. for every OTJ, there is an alterego for the opposite sex, only i don't post it up. :) and guys, you may collapse flat onto the floor just TRYING your heart out, with yet still sad results every single time. i know there are instances where it's hard to be patient, and it's hard to forgive - but the beauty of it all is that you come back willingly and humbly.

she can be hard to get, she can resist you all you want, and she can be so much of a fighter that you want to give up. but you stay, and you say she's worth it even when people disagree. and you stick it up, still giving all you've got.

i know there are guys like these in between every nook and cranny. despite your sincerity, she won't give you a second look or the time of day.
to these men i say:
good job. there's nothing more i can tell you - all i can is, keep trying your heart out, and when she's convinced; excellent. you will get her best.
if not - remember there will ALWAYS be better girls up your alley and more deserving of your beautiful heart.

supersara @ 9:43 PM

you know, the question is WHY!

why use the computer, and not your laptop?!
like my mother, who pushes me OFF the computer so she can bloody blog - when she has her own laptop, that can function just as well. WHY?

why comment about song, when you haven't heard it?
like my father, who, in the first few miliseconds of allison iraheta's rendition of cry baby, says it's a bad song choice! i ask him, have you heard the song? or janis joplin for that matter - to which he replied a proud no. WHY?!

why make promises you can't keep?
like a certain someone who promises you this and that, to go here and there - then blow you off without warning when the significant other comes a-knocking. WHY!

there are many questions why, too many that are sensitive and personal to ask sometimes. it's a frustration torturous to have. but whatever.

supersara @ 9:37 PM

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

chronicles with garrett:

g: eh when you're younger you're so skinny lah. (referring to a picture of me when i was 14)
s: HALLO what does that mean?!
g: umm... you're skinnier now? :)

***

sam and i were talking on facebook last night, and we came to one conclusion: we hate skinny girls. WE HATE SKINNY GIRLS! why do they have to be so skinny! why can't short and fat be IN?! huh huh huh?!

why skinny girls eat so much and get skinnier wan =(
i hate skinny girls. tall, skinny girls who have no problems with love handles and thickness.

supersara @ 12:44 AM

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

an increasingly large magnitude of me halted to ponder,
in a real possibility of losing a beloved partner;

what is the sense of loss when only the bright future is ahead
what is the dimension of grasp when the beloved lies dead?

could it be the Will that such grief prevails in this youth?
are there any odds of a broken, torn, ripped heart to sooth?

so what happens now; how does life begin to start again?
where is hope of laughter in a once known life, now in taint?

no emotions i seek, no compassion i want, no sympathy i beg,
i ask only one - answers to fill comprehension of a joyless lag.

without warning nor recovery, it occured to me then again,
what life is there to left to lead in the old age of disdain?

it is another to say, "i've lost my love, much after ripe old age",
what meaning is there, left to survive in this elderly grey cage?

how does life, then, even attempt to continue further?
when the life of me has left completely, why ever bother?

any loss, at any age; the deprivation of the beloved other
still is the same - nothing else can give, in any way - an answer.

supersara @ 10:12 PM

Friday, March 20, 2009

i find no sense in the fact that my whole family just cannot. lay. off. my case.

stop taking my things.
stop trying to justify taking my things.
and STOP. trying to justify yourself.

just lay off. mind your own business, and do not invade mine.

supersara @ 5:58 PM

Thursday, March 12, 2009

my friends, there is one thing that gets in the way of all of us functioning properly: that is emotions. it halts the ferocity of our quests, ruins the strength for the goal, and last but not least: dooms us to a knee-wobbling succumb.

do not give in to the flubby-wubby inside of you! march on soldier!

word of advice to all law students: abandon your life to focus well. yup. do that.

supersara @ 2:53 PM

Thursday, February 26, 2009

you know what i'm trying to do?
i'm trying to finish my contract non assessed work to be handed in next week.

you know what's stopping me from finishing?
not being able to concentrate.
you know why?

because my family has the sound surround system turned onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. roar.

supersara @ 10:40 PM

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

upon reading sometimes, a thought comes to me; and i begin (quite dramatically) to panic.
and the basis of the panic?
a loss of words.

there are times, often times, increasing times that i begin to wonder if i am losing my language. at one point, it was likened to one of the greatest prides of my life - the ability to speak and write impecably with perfect grammar and a multitude worth of vocabulary.

upon checking myself, i find that i have started to stutter, that i have begun to lose the words to describe my intentions. this greatly, greatly startles me. can one really lose the language after all that has been learnt?

more important still, can one gain it back?

the answer to both the above questions are in the positive. the main idea to increase in reading and increase in speaking well.

however, my time is more or less devoted to reading case law; of which never a chance to add improvement to my words. and whatever spare time i have left is devoted to doing other works. reading suddenly takes too much of my time; but not only that, it takes too much of my thoughts. lately i have been refusing to think. i do enough soul searching for the forsaken study of law - when i pick up a book, i prefer for it to be light and easily digestable. not too much to bother with.

it is a skill that i must not lose. in my limited ability in languages, it's all i can bank on.

supersara @ 10:49 PM

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

lyn's birthday is tomorrow, and naturally i made her a cake. i've come to realise that maybe my talents don't lie in cake-baking so much because everything will go well until the icing comes in. first of all, i suck at that, and secondly, i super suck at putting the icing onto the cake.
but more of that later.

she has asked for an ice cream cake, and this is my first time at the attempt. :) i spent a whole lot of money on the ice cream, because i got the baskin robbins mint chocolate ice cream to fit on to the cake. thought i could maybe make two layers, but turns out, a pint was not enough for two layers. it will have to do because i won't spent anymore money on ice cream!

anyway, making the cake has earnestly taught me that:
BAKING AN ICE CREAM CAKE ON THIS SIDE OF THE PLANET IS NO NO NO NO NO EASY TASK.
unless of course, you have an air cond in your kitchen, to battle the force of heat that severely emanates from the equator - which i do not. (i wonder how the confectioneries make ice cream cakes. maybe they have air conds in their kitchens)

secondly - it is not easy to slosh whipped ganache onto ice cream.
and thirdly - it still would not help to ice the cake in the freezer itself.

oh well, jie and i decided we would just let it freeze proper for a couple of hours, despite the ice cream already freezing (in its perfect size mould for the 8 inch round cakes) for the past day. then, we will attempt mission impossible again.

hopefully i'll remember to take a photo tomorrow, and show you guys, and maybe with a recipe too. :)

p/s: i love martha stewart. :)

supersara @ 10:09 PM